Thursday, 15 February 2018

Burn Update...

At last I have the dressings off my burnt finger. My doctor was worried I may lose full movement but thankfully it seems okay.

The only problem is the new skin. The horrid dark brown burnt leathery skin has now fallen off in the 2nd degree burn areas. Now another laying is peeling off but the skin underneath is so tender!

It's bright red and just the tiniest touch is so painful.

The back of the bottom knuckle really hurts when I bend it but the Doc had given me exercises to do so I can get full movement. I have to put up with the pain - rather pain than not be able to move my finger properly.

Been 3 weeks since the accident - all I can say is I'm bloody lucky!

2nd Degree burns often scar badly and you don't get full movement. I think I may be okay although I'll have to wait until they are fully healed. Been covering the burns in Aloe Vera each time the dressings had to been changed.

Still keep shaking my head - I'm so

Time to turn over a new leaf... think it's time for a change.

Wednesday, 31 January 2018


I was thinking maybe this year will be better and I'll have no more medical worries...

Famous last words!

Friday afternoon I managed to spill boiling water on my left hand - fortunately (or unfortunately) it only hit one finger but that was enough. For about thirty seconds there was no pain then it hit. OMG I have never in my life felt such agony. I was actually screaming, writhing, howling.

Held my hand under a running tap for about thirty minutes - screaming at the top of my voice and crying.

Then I covered it in Aloe Vera... figured it would be okay but the pain started again just a bad so back under water. For the next four hours I alternated between running water and Aloe Vera still howling and cursing at the top of my voice.

By seven o'clock I was so exhausted from crying I actually fell asleep!

Because it was a public holiday no surgeries were open and, anyway, I live alone and don't have anyone I could call on. My younger son and his family had gone out for the day and they were hours away. (I honestly doubt I could have driven myself - it was hard enough driving a manual car on Tuesday.)

Anyway I dressed the finger after coating it in Aloe again. Next morning the pain was a manageable level so re-bandaged it after more Aloe.

4 days later
Tuesday I had to see my doc about my cancer, been about six weeks since my doc checked after the treatment and the good news is the doc's very happy - and so am I!

Don't have to go back for another six months for another cancer check-up. Big relief. I know I'll have to have continual check-ups like I do for my breast but hell that's nothing.

Anyway while I was there I told him about my finger and he took a look. (I took a couple of pics while I waited for the nurse to re-dress it).

He's worried the blisters may burst and the scar tissue may impede the movement of the finger. Have to go back on Thursday for another check-up unless any blisters burst in which case I have to see him immediately.

I can't believe how clumsy I am!

I just hope this doesn't mean the rest of the year is going to be the

I've just got my first round of edits from my new publisher and trying to type one handed is a big pain (I'm a touch typist). Still I'll have them finished in time. Haven't received my cover yet so really looking forward to seeing what they've come with.

Got my royalties from Siren for the past quarter and added them onto a spreadsheet I keep. So nice to see that in total I've sold thousands and thousands of books. It so exciting to see those figures getting larger and larger with each quarter. I can remember when Siren published my first book I told my DIL I'd be excited of it sold 10 copies!!!

Friday, 5 January 2018

A New Year....

So another year has been and gone and what a fucked-up year it was.

I cannot believe that cancer would strike - and so many times. Fortunately younger son is feeling a lot better. The bowel cancer is in remission and the Melanoma has been removed but of course he has to continue with checkups for both from now on. His body is starting to adjust to the weekly chemo doses and he can see a light at the end of the tunnel.

He isn't happy about taking chemo drugs for the rest of his life but then if it keeps him alive then that's what must be. DIL got her results back and she cleared - benign!!

I have my 'two months after final cancer treatment' checkup later this month and hoping for good news. I've gone onto a health kick (although I've blown it over the holiday break) and have lost weight. I'm also walking three times a week - funny how having cancer puts things into perspective.

I've always been someone who tends to live for the day and not worry too much about tomorrow and now I am more so. It's been a shit 6 months coping with my diagnosis and the fact I did it alone without any support but I think I've come out the other side stronger.

The old saying 'that which doesn't kill us makes us stronger' is so true.

Thankfully I've never relied on anyone, I never had girlfriends/friends, for almost the past 6 years I haven't even gone out on a I've always coped with things alone. Perhaps the reason is so I can cope with all that's been thrown my way over the years. Perhaps it is my strength to be alone. So anyway although it was a horrid struggle at times I made it through - and without breaking down into a screaming heap.

Mind you I think if I'd had someone by my side I probably would There were plenty of times I wanted to curl up into a ball and cry my eyes out but I didn't. It would have been a dark pit that I would never have been able to climb out of. I know that pit intimately and I am determined to never go there again. Too many times I struggled and attempted suicide but that is also part of my strength - I've fought the 'black dog' and won!

Anyway this is a new year with new hopes.

I intend to put the cancer behind and get on with living each day to the fullest. I intend to paint, I intend to write and I intend to enjoy every day as if it were the last - I intend to have fun and live!

You've got to sing like you don’t need the money
Love like you’ll never get hurt
You’ve got to dance like nobody’s watchin’
It’s gotta come from the heart if you want it to work.

Sunday, 24 December 2017


I hope you all have a safe and wonderful festive season. I hope 2018 brings you all you could wish for.

Thanks for following me throughout the year and let's all pray for peace in 2018.

Monday, 11 December 2017


So the year is drawing to a close and looks like my family's health issues are going right down to the wire.

DIL's biopsy results are due in next Monday so we have everything crossed for good news.

Younger son's health woes haven't ended - he now had to go onto a chemo drug ... Methotrexate. One and a half tablets once a week - FOR THE REST OF HIS LIFE!

The dosage will increase and the side effects are the same as all chemo drugs.

He's onto his second tablet and feels sick all the time, we are hoping his body adjusts and the nausea wears off soon. It's bad enough to have to go onto chemo but to have to have it forever is such a big shock for us all.

All I can say is roll on 2018 - there is no way it can be worse than this year.

I haven't even had to inclination to write, I have a number of WIPs but will leave them till the new year. Soon I will have my first round of edits on the book my new publisher has accepted so I have the decks cleared for that.

Instead of writing I have picked up my paintbrushes again.  Had a commission portrait for a lady in the US and have sent it off. That got me in the mood to do some more portraits so this is them.
'The Matriarch'

'Lines of Laughter'

I really enjoying painting old faces - love all those wrinkles and the wisdom in their eyes. These will become part of a series called 'Faces of Life' - most will be those wonderful elderly faces.

Now I'm searching through all the photographs I've gathered to find my next subject. It keeps my mind off the worries for my children. I don't care about my own cancer stuff - I can deal with that in my own way but it is so painful to have your children struggle with the monster.

Thursday, 30 November 2017

So Excited ...

I've just signed the contract on a new book - and with a new publisher! 

Evernight Publishing is going to publish Her Dom's Secret Past and I couldn't be more excited. The ebook is due for release in February 2018 and the POD later. Big thank you to them for accepting my work.

I know a number of authors who publish with them and they all agree they are the best.

I loved writing for Siren but they have changed their 'submission requirements' which means any new MS by me are no longer available for submission.

I'm hoping Evernight Publishing will accept my other WIPs once I finish them all including my new BDSM series.

Wednesday, 29 November 2017

Got Ya - Ya Bastard ...

Big sigh of relief!

No more treatments ... yay!! 

Have to see the doc again mid January but overall he is very happy and so am I - in fact I'm ecstatic!

No spread to anywhere in my body so I can say I'm now cancer free.

Naturally I'll have to have continual checks from now on but I beat that bastard.

Friday, 24 November 2017

Fingers Crossed....

Off to see my doctor on Monday - I have everything crossed for good news.

My cancer was found in August and I've been having treatment - on Monday I find out if I need more or if I've finished.

I didn't tell anyone (including my family) about my cancer because they were all going through their own hell and didn't need more woes to worry about.

Anyway I'm one of those weirdoes who doesn't like to bother people and instead hides everything.

Came clean to them all last weekend ... lol.... but naturally played it right down saying it wasn't much.

Younger son's cancers are all behaving and he's in remission. DIL gets to see her doc the beginning of December to find out if she needs any more treatment.

Elder son's FIL just been diagnosed with brain tumour - no news yet on treatment etc. Weird when you think my boys' father had a brain tumour.... spooky. So we are sending positive thoughts to the family in hopes it's one of those treatable ones which it is looking like.

Anyway come Monday please cross your fingers for me (and DIL)

Friday, 10 November 2017

And Cancer Hits Again..

Well that's a big fuck!

Now it's my turn with the big C.

Having treatment since August and thankfully it's contained to the one area. Makes me wonder why the hell me and my family being targeted by cancer... son has 2 different types of cancer in 12 months, DIL and now me.

Still it could be worse - at least I'm alive and I plan to live for another 30 years ... lol.

Wednesday, 1 November 2017

Please Vote for Me ....

I've made the finals in the Australian Romance Reader's Choice Awards.  I'd love it if you could take the time to please vote for me - thank you.

Just 'Like' under the picture on the link. (You don't have to live in Australia to vote as my books are sold worldwide.)

(and an enormously big thank you to those who nominated me.)

Monday, 16 October 2017


Shit, shit, shit!

Just when we thought things were finally getting back to normal DIL saw specialist today and the doc dropped the C word with a loud bang.

Once again it's hit, now waiting on biopsy results.

Sunday, 8 October 2017

Books and Mission to Mars...

I am a voracious reader ... always have been and always will. I have a few addictions in my life. One is watercolour paintbrushes - I can't seem to resist buying them when I see them (good quality ones that is) and along with that is art supplies. My other addiction is buying books.

I say to myself I'll be good and only buy one but of course that never works. Decided the other week I'd read the Agatha Raisin books. Now any normal person would buy one to see if they liked it before outlaying money on the rest - not me!

I found a place in England that had the first 20 books for under $40aus so had to have them. They turned up last week and now I'm up to book 5 and loving them (thank goodness).

Of course then the latest Dan Brown book was released through the week and I just had to have it - I mean it might have sold out world wide. The publishers might have decided not to print more and then I'd never get a copy!

Anyway, that was my excuse. I went into Kmart to buy it for 2 reasons - 1. it was cheaper than at the bookshop and 2. I wouldn't be tempted by all those lovely books calling me from the shelves.

Yeah I know.

And yes I did buy another book, I really wanted to read it (that's my excuse).  So now my TBR pile has hit astronomical heights.  Last count there were 78 books on it and I have decided not to count it ever again.

On an interesting note I was on the NASA website when I read they had opened the books for people to add their names to the next lander Mars Mission. I missed out last time so quickly logged in and now I have my boarding pass!

I'm off to Mars!!

When it lands on Mars in November of 2018, NASA's InSight lander will be carrying several science instruments -- along with hundreds of thousands of names from members of the public.
In 2015, nearly 827,000 people signed up to add their names to a silicon microchip onboard the robotic spacecraft. NASA is now adding a second microchip, giving the public another chance to send their names to Mars. New submissions will be accepted from Oct. 2 to Nov. 1, 2017

InSightInSight: A NASA Discovery Program mission Spacecraft 

Mission Type: Lander
Launch Window Begins: May 5, 2018
Launch Vehicle: Atlas V 401
Launch Location: Vandenberg Air Force Base, California
Landing: Nov. 26, 2018
Landing Site: Elysium Planitia, Mars
InSight (Interior Exploration using Seismic Investigations, Geodesy and Heat Transport) is a NASA Discovery Program mission that will place a single geophysical lander on Mars to study its deep interior. But InSight is more than a Mars mission - it is a terrestrial planet explorer that will address one of the most fundamental issues of planetary and solar system science - understanding the processes that shaped the rocky planets of the inner solar system (including Earth) more than four billion years ago.

Monday, 4 September 2017

Please Take a Minute to Nominate Me...

I have a big favour to ask all my readers.

I would love it if you would like to nominate me for Best Established Author for 2017 at the link below. Just need to type in your email address and my name, Suzy Shearer - simple!

Big thank you!!

Friday, 1 September 2017

A Big Sigh of Relief...

After being hit with two types of cancer in 12 months my son had a follow-up op today and thankfully he is now cancer-free. Surgeon is very happy with how son's body is healing - while we are all over the moon.

He will have to have continual check ups for the rest of his life but that's a minuscule price to pay!

Hopefully after the shitty few years that have plagued myself and the kids we can all now look forward to a better life for us all.